…what your purpose is?

Some people cannot handle the truth, so they don’t bother telling it. Some people ask for the truth, ready to receive it, and feel a blow to the head when they hear it because it hits so close to the core of their exact thought pattern and they feel that they may end up doing something about it. I think that is where I am.

I had the wind knocked out of my sails yesterday. It isn’t a big deal really. For a long time I’ve felt so empty when it comes down to who I am as a person. I’ve been soul searching for months — years even — trying to find my purpose. I’ve come up empty. I’ve come up short. But I still try to stand tall and do the best I can. Well, not quite.

I haven’t had a passion for my daily routine and I haven’t been applying myself as best as I could. Because I haven’t cared and perhaps it is time for a change. I read and read and continue to read and still am not sure of what the right fit for my future is. I write my thoughts out but never look back at them for fear I may discover the redundancy in my words and the lack of growth in my thought process.

I give it to those who wake up and know what their purpose is. I give it to those who had a dream and follow it. I give it to those who have the proper support system to help them through the tough times.

I don’t know what my purpose is but I hope I find it soon.

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You wake up. You wash. You dress. You go to work. You go home.

Five basic every day things. There is a lot in between. The travel in between, the people you meet, the every day situations that appear to be unique but end up being routine, eventually.

Sometimes you think you’re alone in your way of thinking and later you find out that some people think just like you.

Routine. Boredom. Complacency.

Someone wanted to know what the meaning of life was. I couldn’t help but to shake my head and try to find the best answer. But even I don’t know.

You’re born. You go to school. You’re told to get good grades. You graduate. You got more schools. You try to get good grades. Some where in between you get a job, or two, or three. You look to take your life to the next level. If they like you and you are worth it you get raises and become a success. You meet someone special. You marry. You make babies. Now what?

You work harder. You make more babies. You vacation. You pretend to like people when you don’t. You try to make sure your kids are the best they can be. Now what?

You climb the corporate ladder. You hit the ceiling. You get old. You retire. You die.

Where is happiness? At what point does that occur?

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…it isn’t.

I’m born to screw up. Even when things seem so right they can go so wrong. One minor mistake, mishap, oversight, or lack of proper attention can cause so many problems that it appears that people are attacking you when they are just covering their own selves.

Every day is a new beginning, but some things just don’t end. I’ve allowed my thoughts to get the better of me and think the worst of everything. While I’m trying to find new direction and get my affairs in order I stumble in other areas that need a lot more attention — attention I don’t have time to give.

Let’s hope their is balance ahead so that peace of mind can ensue.

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